hOllisterCo_addict

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everything is finally
working out for everyone.
everyone is getting
who they want
& what they want.
i`m extremely happy
for them because
they all deserve it,
but i can`t help
but to wonder
why it can`t happen to me..

spoke too soon.

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hOllisterCo_Addict.

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quit.

things are starting
to look up for me.
i`m actually kind of happy.

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warped tour was amazing.

two step.

new step.

let`s start over again.

so i`m actually giving this post some meaning.
i have no idea why i`ve been so upset lately about not being with somebody. i just
feel so weak that i think i have to be with someone to make me happy. i don`t know
what i actually really want. but i hope i get it sometime soon. i`m sick of always
ending up hurt somehow. i just really want to know, when will it be my turn for
happiness? why can`t it be me who gets to be stress free? on some nights, when i`m
lying in bed, i think about all the terrible things in my life, &i always pray to god 
"why is this all happening to me? what have i done that could have been so terrible
to be punished this way. on clear nights, i lay in the grass, no matter where i am.
&i always hope to see a shooting star... that star never seems to come around. i
don`t know anymore. i guess for the most part, i feel like giving up. it`s all i have left.